I feel like a total ass. I messed up last week and thought that my therapy appointment was on Friday when it was actually on Thursday. My phone starts ringing at 3PM on Thursday for my video appointment but I couldn’t answer it. All I could do was stare at my caller ID with a knot in my stomach. Next, I receive a call and a voicemail reminding me about the appointment and asking me to reschedule. I know that all of this sounds ridiculous. I mean, I’m holding the phone, the phone is literally in my hand, but I just can’t answer it. I’m not prepared. I’m not ready. I had prepared myself for a Friday visit. Something about the surprise and my own forgetfulness made me choke up.
The worst part of it all is that I made the exact same mistake again this week! I felt bad about missing my appointment so I called to reschedule for the following week. However, when the day rolled around, I thought that the meeting had been scheduled for 2:30PM instead of 3PM. I sit on my bed ready with phone in hand at 2:30PM but my therapist doesn’t call. I wait for about 20 minutes before handing my phone to my daughter so she could watch YouTube videos. At exactly 3:00PM the phone starts ringing. I hear it but once again, I can’t answer it. Why am I like this?
Not to be dramatic, but I am so embarrassed about wasting his time 2 weeks in a row that I literally don’t think that I can talk to him again. He didn’t sound upset on the voicemails that he left me, but I know that it must have been an inconvenience for him. I’m sure that I will gather the courage to reschedule eventually but I seriously need to invest in a day planner.
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Love Always, AnxiouslyM