Anxiously Planning For The Uncertain Future

People rarely talk about how hard it is to plan for the future when you have an anxiety disorder. For a lucky few, anxiety triggers are predictable. These people can typically manage their anxiety by avoiding the things, people, and situations that trigger their anxiety. However, anxiety isn’t always this simple for everyone. Anxiety can rear its ugly head at any time for any reason. It isn’t always easy to know what will trigger an anxiety/panic attack. How are anxiety sufferers supposed to plan for their futures without knowing if their anxiety will allow them to fulfill their commitments and obligations? Even making simple plans, like a night out with friends, seems overwhelming when you don’t know if your anxiety will let you follow through. What’s the big secret?

I’m currently unemployed, but I want to go back to work in the future when my kids go back to school. I want to try to pursue something new for employment this go around, like working with kids or working in an office setting. I want to return to my handmade jewelry business. Additionally, I’m only two semesters away from finishing my associates degree and I am anxious to go back to school to complete my remaining classes. Every time I sit down to make a plan to achieve my goals, I experience a brief moment of hopefulness before I’m hit with a wave of anxiety and disappointment.

Driving in the rain and in the dark triggers panic attacks for me. How am I supposed to commit to a job when getting there and back will inevitably require me to drive in these conditions at some point. I’m agoraphobic and have a difficult time going out in public. I am starting to experience some improvements with this but there is no guarantee that having to go to a job every day wouldn’t trigger me. What if I get a job working with children and have an anxiety attack while I’m in charge of them. I dropped out of school in January because it was starting to trigger my anxiety and depression. What if it is too soon for me to take that on again?

I wish that I could go back to the person that I was before having this mental breakdown. I used to be able to take on so much by myself, but now I fear myself incapable of simple everyday asks like driving and going out in public. Something tells me that the sooner I get back to being a productive member of society, socializing and engaging with other people, the sooner I will feel better. Sadly, this isn’t a guaranteed. There are no guarantees when it comes to anxiety.

It seems that the only way to know for sure is to put myself out there and try it, which is hard to do when a bad experience could lead to a major mental catastrophe. Even as I write this, I am unsure about how to move forward or if I even will. I’ve read that planning things out in advance is essential to anxiety sufferers because this will give them time to back out of something without inconveniencing the other people involved if needed. I don’t know how much help this tip will offer regarding job interviews and taking on new employment but it’s worth a try. If I discover any more helpful tips you guys will be the first to know.

Do you have an anxiety disorder? If you do, I would love to hear from you in the comment section below. Do you experience this problem too? What are some strategies that have made going to work and planning for the future easier for you? If you enjoyed this post, please shoot me a comment, like, or a follow.

Love Always, AnxiouslyM

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