Open Diary 11

The last couple of weeks have been chaotic…

Picking up from my last diary post, a few days after Ross’ relapse, one of his friends/acquaintances died from a heroine overdose. It was late, probably after midnight, and Ross was outside smoking a cigarette. He said he saw ambulance lights flashing through the woods that separates our house from his and he wanted to drive over there to make sure everything was okay. When he got there, he said that his friend Michael came out to meet him as the ambulance workers were toting his other friend’s dead body into the ambulance. I don’t think that Ross was super close to this guy but they did hang out together occasionally. I hate that this happened, it is never a good thing when someone dies like this. However, I hope that being there and seeing what he saw firsthand will be a wake up call for him. I think that it may have had an effect because he has been sober ever since. He is talking about trying to get off of methadone and onto suboxone. I just wish I could talk him into going to NA.

Gail had an ice-cream day at her school for achieving her monthly reading goal. I decided to let her go so she could meet her class for the first time. She was so cute interacting with the other kids. They all ran up to her, recognizing her from distance learning. She even clicked with a few of the girls in her class even though she didn’t talk much. As we were leaving, her whole class rushed to the window to wave goodbye to her.

The day before Thanksgiving, Ross brought home a two year old cat from one of his friends house. I wasn’t too excited about getting a cat at first because we have had some bad experiences with pets in the past, but our new cat is perfect. She is fluffy and fat with solid dark gray fur. Her eyes are a beautiful aqua green color that I have never seen before. Her temperament is a perfect fit for our family. I’m seriously obsessed! She likes to either be petted or left alone to sleep. I clicked with her instantly. We decided to let Brent name her. He chose to name her Silva after a character from one of the anime shows that he likes. Gail loves her too. She is still a little scared to pet her, but she keeps trying to feed her and play with her whiskers.

Thanksgiving was a bit of a let down for us this year, as I’m sure it was for many of you as well. We were planning to have Thanksgiving dinner outside so we could all “social distance,” but it turned out that most of us were already too sick to celebrate anyways. We just found out that our baby niece has Covid-19, and her parents think they are coming down with it too. Needless to say, they didn’t make it to Thanksgiving dinner. One of Ross’ sisters babysat her a few days before her diagnosis, so she and her family are in quarantine now too. One of our nephews got sick the day before Thanksgiving, claiming to have lost his sense of smell and taste. His parents are still waiting on his Covid-19 test results to come back. As for my family, Ross’ cough has been out of control this past week. He hasn’t had any other symptoms. I have been congested with a sore throat and a headache for most of the week. Gail seems to have the same symptoms as me but she is still acting like her normal self. Thankfully, Brent hasn’t gotten sick yet and has been quarantined in his room away from the rest of us, just in case. I don’t know if my family and I have Covid-19 or a head cold. We weren’t directly exposed to any of our sick family members but may have been indirectly exposed. I think that I may hold off until next week to get any testing done because we all seem to be managing it okay right now.

I feel like this sickness has totally taken over Thanksgiving break for us. I had so many plans for things that I wanted to accomplish. I wanted to do a lot more blogging and reading, make some to-do-lists so I can start working towards getting my life back on track, play around with my camera, have a game night with the kids and my mom, and get back into my jewelry making so that I can try to save some money to fix my car. The situation being as it is now, I haven’t gotten anything done and the kids go back to school tomorrow. All of these Covid-19 cases have me scared to send my kids back to school (in person) after Christmas. I want to send them back because I want to finish my associates degree and go back to work but based on how things have been lately, I don’t know if I’m going to send them back to school or not.

Hopefully this sickness won’t last too much longer so we can all get back to normal soon. All I feel like doing right now is going to sleep, but like most moms, I get no rest. Even when I’m sick I still have to cook and clean and take care of everyone else. What I wouldn’t give for a nap right now…

How was your Thanksgiving? Did you get together with family or did you celebrate from a distance? I would love to hear from you in the comment section below. If you enjoyed this post, please shoot me a like, comment, or follow.

Love Always, AnxiouslyM

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