I have started really looking forward to Sundays, as it is usually the day that I draw new cards for my shadow work/self development. It is exciting getting to see what I’m going to work on next. I usually spend a day or two trying to figure out how to makes sense of my reading and how to get started. I don’t think that this week is going to be any different, as the card the a drew for my shadow aspect could be interpreted 1,000 different ways.
For this week I drew the Ace of Wands as my shadow aspect card, The Magician (again) as my integration card, and the 2 of Cups as my outcome card.
The Ace of Wands often refers to new passions and adventures. It expresses the need for a creativity and a healthy creative outlet. It tells us that it is okay to have big dreams and urges us to start taking the first steps to make them come true. This card is about being brave, being confident, and taking chances to make your dreams become a reality. There are opportunities around you and room for growth, all you have to do is seize them. This card is an action card, not a planning and strategizing card. I guess that the key word with this card would be “potential.” The question is, what are you going to do with it? Though you may be full of passion, desire, and opportunity, it will require action, determination, and discipline to reach your fullest potential. Instead of trying to think of the logical way forward, this card encourages one to follow their heart, instincts, and passions. If you have been interested in trying something new, dive in and give it a go. Listen to your gut, it’s probably right.
Regarding integration, I drew The Magician again. I like drawing this card in this placement because it means that I already have everything I need within me to manifest what I want. It tells me that in regards to integrating the particular shadow aspect in question, I just need to take in the information in front of me and put it in action. However, I am starting to wonder if this card is also trying to tell me that I have become complacent in my life since it has come up twice now in the same position.
I drew the 2 of Cups as my outcome card. This card is about making and maintain strong partnerships. Often this card refers to romantic relationships. However, it can refer to any type of relationship, even the one that you have with yourself. This card tells us to value all of our relationships and to recognize the possibilities that they bring to our life.
At first glance, I feel like this reading is encouraging me to explore the things that hold me back from reaching for my dreams. Why don’t I trust my instincts? Why do I find it impossible to go after what I want without first thinking the idea to death? Why don’t I feel that I am allowed to have big dreams? Why am I afraid of self expression? How and why do I lack self confidence and courage? I already have everything that I need within me to work through these questions and change my problem behaviors. In doing so, I feel that I will be able to have healthier relationships with the people who are already in my life, make new relationships with others after learning to “put myself out there,” and become more honest in the relationship that I have with myself through self expression and acknowledgement of my desires. I hope that through this work, I will be able to form a better relationship with myself by learning how to trust my instincts and by allowing myself to outwardly express the dreams, ideas, and feelings that are currently hidden within me.
I have a feeling this is going to be a fun and scary week.
These shadow work posts are truly intended for my own self improvement and discovery, but I thank those of you who took the time to read this. I will continue to work with my shadow aspects relating to the Ace of Wands for the remainder of the week OR until I feel that it is time for me to move on to another shadow aspect/card.
Love Always, AnxiouslyM