Admittedly, I have been a bit stuck as this week is slowly nearing it’s end. I was thinking about moving onto a new shadow aspect a day early, but I wanted to make sure that I wasn’t missing something before pushing forward. I decided to draw a few cards to see if there was more that I needed to learn before moving forward.
I drew the Queen of Wands, Strength, and the Knight of Wands reversed.
In my Ace of Wands card, a woman is being passed a wand. However, in my Queen of Wands card, the Queen is actually holding the want. She has taken ownership of it. The Queen of Wands tells me that it is time to become all of the things that I am trying to manifest. I need to take action. I need to take my shadow work off of my blog and into my actual life. This does not mean that I am going to stop writing, it just means that in regards to the Ace of Wands, I will be focusing on taking those lessons into my real life instead of just writing about them. However, the Queen of wands paired with Strength reminds me that I don’t have to push so hard to make things happen. The world really isn’t against me. I don’t need to prove anything to anyone or get anything done on a deadline. These are my dreams and I can enact them MY way. Manifesting my dreams isn’t a fight, it is creation. It requires inner strength, self awareness, and courage, but it does not require me to act forcibly to make something happen. Just as the Magician from my original reading has already told me, I already have everything I need to create the life that I want. I simply have to exist, manifest, express myself, and follow my instincts. I need to stop viewing the creation of my life as a war between me and everyone else, and realize that I am and always have been in control. There is no need to take back what has always been mine. I simply have to take hold of the wand! Take the opportunities! Take ownership of my life. Move forward. Lastly, the Knight of Wands reverse tells me that it is okay for me to move slow. Moving slow is who I am, and trying to force myself to rush through life will only lead me into making decisions based on impulse. This is not to say that I shouldn’t follow my instincts in the moment or that I should “sleep” on opportunities that are in front me in the moment. However, it does tell me that I shouldn’t force anything for the sake of progress. Even though the wands suit typically indicated things are fast moving, this card reminds me to have patients to fully explore my interests. In a way, this is telling me that in order for an interest to grow into something more, I will have to take the time to fully explore it and feel it out. I am in control of my own manifestation, but manifestation can often take time. I want the vision that I have developed for my life to stick. Therefore, I need to ensure that I am fully exploring things and what they have to offer me before moving onto something new.
Manifestation and self expression require us to follow our gut and to take advantage of opportunities when they present themselves. However, they also require us to take our time and give things a chance to bloom. They require an inner trust that realizes that things will happen when you make them happen. It is okay to move slow as long as you aren’t neglecting to take advantage of what is in front of you right now. You have to keep moving, no matter your pace. It is also important to step out your comfort zone and do things that scare you. This will help you to build self confidence, self trust, and strengthen your inner voice.
In short, there won’t be any more shadow work posts from me until Sunday. I am going to spend my remaining time thinking about how I can take all of the things mentioned above and start implementing them in my life. I am also going to try to start doing little things that scare me and challenge my fear of judgement and rejection every day (that I can). I am going to continue to take the time to explore my hobbies and the opportunities around me. Finally, I am going to work on communicating what I really think and feel in all areas of my life without repressing anything. This last bit is going to take some work…but I am dedicating myself to it here and now.
These shadow work posts are truly intended for my own self discovery and development, but I thank those of you who took the time to read this. There will be no more shadow posts from me this week, but check back in an Sunday when I plan to move onto another card/shadow aspect.
Love Always, AnxiouslyM