I took a short hiatus from my shadow work blogging because honestly, I was feeling really confused about how to move forward. I am back again today with a new pull, though after checking out my cards I think think that this week may have me doing a lot of introspection and thinking that may pull me away from blogging too. We will see how it goes.
This week I drew the 9 of cups for my shadow aspect card, the 6 of swords for my integration card, and the Wheel of Fortune reversed as my outcome card.
The 9 of cups is all about emotional fulfilment, wish fulfilment, abundance, and contentment. It is about being happy with where I am in life and allowing myself to indulge in the pleasure of the moment. Additionally, this card expresses the need to show gratitude for all of the good things in my life. A major message with this card, which I feel ties in perfectly with the other two cards that I drew for this week, is that contentment is temporary. Nothing lasts forever, so I need to be thankful for what I have while I have it. Also, I need to examine the ways that I cling to comfort and contentment. I may cling to contentment because it feels safe rather than taking a risk to go after what would make me truly happy. Additionally, I need to examine my fear of accepting the good in my life simply because I fear that something bad is waiting just around the corner? I know that I have an issue with permanence, and I think that this card is urging me to examine that a bit deeper. I need to consider the things that I currently have in motion, because this card is often known as the “wish fulfilment” card. Again, I may need to take a look at the dreams that I have for my life, and decide if where I am right now is putting me on the path towards fulfilment.
The 6 of cups, my integration card, tells me that to be truly grateful with what I have, I need to let go of what I HAD. This card indicates a need to cut ties with the past and move forward. This card tells me that it is time for me to transition from one phase of my life into another. However, I should not make this decision lightly. Change is hard, and it may be sad and scary for me to cut ties with my past and move into the unknown, but the change will help me to become a better person. I need to take a look at what is holding me back from the future that I want. What is keeping me from being fulfilled in my life? Something tells me that the answer to this may be found in the areas of my life where I have settled for contentment over happiness. In order to be truly happy in the moment and to see my future clearly, I need to let the past go. Throughout this process, I will likely be faced with many tough decisions that will challenge my growth. Alternatively, this card can sometimes mean travel. Going on a small trip or escape might be good to help me gain perspective.
The Wheel of Fortune, my outcome card, tells me that working through these issues may cause me to feel like my luck is taking a turn for the worse. However, there is some comfort in the fact that it won’t last forever. The wheel will turn in my favor again as it always does. Throughout this process, I need to use this as a chance to act and take my life back rather than waiting for things to right themselves. The outcome of this will bring me to a place where I need to think about where I am, how I got there, and where I want to go from here. Even though it may feel like I am in a bad place…it is actually a pivotal moment in my life where I can take my power back and get my life back on the right track. This is why I really need to spend a lot of my time this week examining my resistance to change and trying to overcome it. This process will require change, so I need to prepare myself for it. Additionally, I need to examine my issues surrounding permanence, because this process my require me to uproot some things that I never intended to uproot. I will be coming to the end of a negative cycle and the process will likely take time. I feel that this process will run past the end of the week, though I am not sure how long I will be called to work with this before moving onto another shadow aspect. I am not sure if I will be called to resolve this completely before moving forward or if I can move one while things are still in motion. We will see how it goes.
These shadow work posts are truly intended for my own self discovery and development, but I thank those of you who took the time to read this. I will be working with my shadow aspects relating to the 9 of Cups OR until I feel that it is time for me to move on to another card/shadow aspect.
Love Always, AnxiouslyM